Wanna Be

Tried my best to be happy today. I woke up with something that resembled the feeling of hope.

There was sun coming through my curtains and I felt well rested. I guess that’s what happens when you sleep from 11 till 9. Excellent.

I shopped for food at a Trader Joes a bit outside of town. It’s about 3 times the size with so many more things for the eating. I actually really liked the town it was in too, very cute and more diverse in age groups. Maybe I’ll look for apartments there come the fall.

I also did some music, applied for some jobs, wandered around in the snow taking pictures…. Kept myself busy enough to get through the day without time to stare outside as ask “why on earth did I come back out here?”

One big reason? David time. It’s so awesome to be able to see him for extended periods of time every single day. We’ve gotten closer over the break, since we had so many hard conversations and hurdles to get over. But I really think we’re stronger for it.

Course, I’m still worried. Scared. Nervous. But I think that if I keep this up I’ll find something to hold on to and keep me afloat. Tomorrow it’s supposed to be snowing, so we’ll see how that goes. Maybe I’ll go on another adventure to find someplace cool or new. Mostly I should find a place that will give me money. But not sleep studies….. waaay too intense for me.